{"id":86,"date":"2006-12-06T15:08:00","date_gmt":"2006-12-06T15:08:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/brianmashburn.net\/?p=86"},"modified":"2006-12-06T15:08:00","modified_gmt":"2006-12-06T15:08:00","slug":"secret-life-feedback-9","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/?p=86","title":{"rendered":"Secret Life Feedback #9"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>\n<div><font face=Arial><span class=985382821-05122006>More feedback from the  blog\/email entitled &#8220;Secret Life of Discipleship.&#8221; <span  class=985382821-05122006>Check out the various generations represented  here&#8230;<\/span><\/span><\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><span class=985382821-05122006><span  class=985382821-05122006><\/span><\/span><\/font>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><span class=985382821-05122006><span  class=985382821-05122006>I think I&#8217;ll piece together&nbsp;two more sets of  feedback, ending with an even eleven (smirk). I think I will use&nbsp;the next  one&nbsp;to deal with my choice of using&nbsp;the word  &#8220;Secret&#8221;&#8230;<\/span><\/span><\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><span class=985382821-05122006><span  class=985382821-05122006><\/span><\/span><\/font>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><span class=985382821-05122006><span  class=985382821-05122006>I&#8217;m so grateful&nbsp;to all of your feedback&#8230;this  whole little&nbsp;cyber-experience has been good for my heart.&nbsp;One friend  of mine, after reading it, said he could see how the writing and sending of this  is good&nbsp;&#8220;catharsis&#8221; for&nbsp;me&#8230;which&nbsp;is right. It has  been.&nbsp;Thanks for going there with me&#8230;<\/span><\/span><\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><font size=2><span  class=985382821-05122006><\/span><\/font><\/font>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><font size=2><span class=985382821-05122006> <\/p>\n<div><span class=985382821-05122006><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\">&#8220;Despite being fourth generation  church of Christ (3 of my grandparents were born into C of C families over 100  years ago) and attending C of C&#8217;s 3 time per week for my entire life I have  grown to feel like an outsider. <\/span><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\">On a good day,&nbsp;I do not care  that I am a misfit. On those days it is enough for me to be focused on Jesus and  seek His glory. On other days, I walk in the flesh and I am wearied of  constantly swimming upstream. I get tired of being that strange but harmless guy  who is out of step with my brothers. My wife <\/span><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\">and I are strongly considering  leaving the churches of Christ to experience aspects of the Christian faith that  we have not explored in our fellowship.&nbsp; We also realize that we will be  leaving behind all of the strengths of our movement of which there are many.  Please pray that God will speak clearly to us.&#8221; &#8212; 45ish  brother<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<p><\/span><\/font><\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><font size=2><span  class=985382821-05122006><\/span><\/font><\/font>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><font face=Arial><font size=2><span class=985382821-05122006>&#8220;<\/span>How  very encouraging to read all the feedback.&nbsp;I have made the decision&nbsp;to  leave the Church of Christ after so many years of questioning and seeing no  truth in so many of the answers I got. I knew that there was no truth in the  answers as I found no peace in them.&nbsp;My heart aches at how many&nbsp;of us  have missed and are missing&nbsp;so much of the life abundant Christ shed His  blood to give us.&nbsp;I am ready to receive fully His right to give me all that  He purchased for me with His blood. As all of those who have expressed resonance  and support for your writings and their lives transform,&nbsp;our Lord&nbsp;is  being&nbsp;glorified and held up through&nbsp;their lives so that the world will  ask for the reason for&nbsp;their hope, and we they can answer with so much  love, assurance, joy, and peace.&nbsp;It is my prayer that my Father will  continue to heal all the pain I have experienced attempting to find peace in all  the wrong places, and that He will return me to the Church of Christ fully  healed and alive so that I might serve Him fully for the life I have left. So  many thoughts in this &#8220;Secret Life&#8221; express&nbsp;so much of&nbsp;all I have  needed to become free with the &#8220;peace <strong>and <\/strong>freedom&nbsp;that  passes understanding.&#8221;<span class=985382821-05122006>&#8221; &#8212; 60ish sister,  life-long member of the Church of Christ<\/span><\/font><\/font><\/div>\n<div><span class=985382821-05122006><font face=Arial size=2><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\"><\/span><\/font><\/span>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><span class=985382821-05122006><font face=Arial size=2><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\"> <\/p>\n<div><\/span><\/font><\/span><span class=985382821-05122006><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\">&#8220;I grew up in the CoC and was fully  indoctrinated into the legalistic mindset that you describe.&nbsp; Rather than  making me angry or confused, it basically made me callous.&nbsp; I went through  the motions but my spirit was sucked away and I was left with a legalistic shell  of a faith.&nbsp; I did the things I had to do on Sunday and went right back  into the world the following morning.&nbsp; Thanks be to God that I&#8217;m slowly  turning back into something that might one day be recognizable as a  Christian.&nbsp; Finding like-minded people here in [my town] and now on Blogs  like yours have started a slow trickle&nbsp;of the Spirit into&nbsp;a long-since  dry well.&#8221; &#8211; 34 year old brother, life long member of the Church of  Christ<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div><span class=985382821-05122006><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\"><\/span><\/span>&nbsp;<\/div>\n<div><span class=985382821-05122006><span  style=\"FONT-SIZE: 10pt; FONT-FAMILY: Arial\">&#8220;When you spoke of being mentorless,  this is how I have felt and am still feeling but I have decided I no longer want  to merely pray just to have God answer them but to have a real and alive  relationship with him. And thank you for drawing attention back to Christ where  so many times we get distracted by the things pointing us to him.&nbsp; I loved  what you said about giving sacrificially at the risk of being called &#8220;bad  stewardship&#8221;.&nbsp; I can remember hearing the sermon about &#8220;Good Stewardship&#8221;  so many times growing up.&nbsp; However I&#8217;m afraid that we have been hoarding  the gifts from God under the label of being &#8220;Good Stewards.&#8221;&nbsp; And more and  more I wonder if Jesus himself would have been labeled a Good Steward of  money.&nbsp;I really don&#8217;t get involved with church programs for many of the  reasons you stated.&nbsp; I really want to but I cannot find a place inside the  church walls to have the &#8220;life-giving impact&#8221; on people. In fact I would say  many of the deeply spiritual events in my life happened outside of the church  building.&nbsp; My friends and I started a home Bible Study&nbsp;to bring people  in from the area who weren&#8217;t really Followers.&nbsp; As they began to become  Christians, we had the problem of getting them involved in local Churches  because no church seemed to fit them or were easy to get plugged into.&nbsp; It  seemed as if there were no place for them. I feel the same way about walking on  egg shells with what we say.&nbsp; Sometimes when I speak at places, I think to  myself, &#8220;If they really knew what I believe would they let me be standing here  on this stage?&#8221; Thank you.&nbsp; It makes me happy and encourages me to see that  people outside of my generation are seeing these things and wishing for  something different.&nbsp; I debate within myself to&nbsp; leave and start  something different or to stay and work with the people I love and care about  for something more in line with Christ.&#8221; &#8211; 21ish brother, life long member of  the Church of Christ<\/span><\/div>\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>More feedback from the blog\/email entitled &#8220;Secret Life of Discipleship.&#8221; Check out the various generations represented here&#8230; &nbsp; I think I&#8217;ll piece together&nbsp;two more sets of feedback, ending with an even eleven (smirk). I think I will use&nbsp;the next one&nbsp;to deal with my choice of using&nbsp;the word &#8220;Secret&#8221;&#8230; &nbsp; I&#8217;m so grateful&nbsp;to all of your [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-86","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pO6nf-1o","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/86"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=86"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/86\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=86"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=86"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=86"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}