{"id":416,"date":"2012-08-27T13:36:53","date_gmt":"2012-08-27T13:36:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/?p=416"},"modified":"2012-08-27T13:36:54","modified_gmt":"2012-08-27T13:36:54","slug":"tired-of-hearing-myself-talk","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.brianmashburn.net\/?p=416","title":{"rendered":"Tired of Hearing Myself Talk"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u201cWhen you begin to feel like you know nothing, you may finally be learning something.\u201d<\/em> \u2013 Yours Truly<\/font><\/p>\n

“I am unworthy-how can I reply to you? I put my hand over my mouth. I spoke once, but I have no answer- twice, but I will say no more.”<\/em> \u2013 Job, after saying far too much, when he found himself before God
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What is a preacher to do when he is tired of hearing himself talk?<\/p>\n

Lately, I\u2019ve felt a desire to not speak in situations where I usually must (and willingly do). It has been refreshingly good.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m not sure where this is coming from. But I\u2019m not panicked about it. I\u2019m actually excited. It feels like a transition is happening inside of me. Some more growing up that has been a long time coming. More revolution. More transformation.<\/p>\n

While excited, I am a bit nervous. It seems when I get a feeling like this, no matter what the subject is and where it comes from, it is always followed by a tsunami of conviction into a new landscape of truth that I have no choice but to redesign my life around. I never know how small or large the implications may end up being, so\u2026 I am a bit nervous.<\/p>\n

But still, excited. I have found my life to be much more abundant, clear, peaceful, prioritized, and impactful when I willingly submit to the tsunami as it comes exploding from the invisible depths and into the surface of my life, obliterating and then washing away all the well established routines of my life that I\u2019ve created, killing them (hear: killing me), and then requiring a massive rebuilding effort in the sunshine of the aftermath of the storm (hear: resurrecting me with new life). <\/p>\n

What does it mean? Well, I could guess, and throw out several predictions based on my experiences from the past, or based on the trajectory of my life, or based on the deepest desires of my heart…<\/p>\n

\u2026but I\u2019m tired of hearing myself talk. I\u2019m tired of being like Job, who though he is in the midst of a powerful drama involving himself, his family, his God, and his friends \u2013 a drama that truly does matter to him and to those around him \u2013 I\u2019m tired of being like him, who \u201copens his mouth with empty talk; without knowledge he multiplies words.\u201d<\/em> (Job 35:16)<\/p>\n

So I\u2019ll just wait and see. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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